“The Butterfly never meets its mother. It must survive independently and remains a stranger to affection. An animal nurtured by mother’s milk, however, is dependent on another for its basic survival. A child who grows up in a cold and detached home environment is similar to the butterfly, in that kindness is sparing. Once an adult, it will be very difficult for that person to show compassion.”
14Th Dalai Lama
Serie: Ancestral Connection.
It is dedicated to my great grandmothers, the ones I never knew, but whose rebel spirits I carry with me.
– Comuniyó?
“Ñatore may”
How are you?
Very good, Thank you.
“When we illuminate the road back to our ancestors, they have a way of reaching out, of manifesting themselves…sometimes even physically.” ― Raquel Cepeda, Bird of Paradise: How I Became Latina 
“You are not a country, Africa. You are a concept. You are not a concept, Africa. You are a glimpse of the infinity.”-Ali Mazrui
Serie: Monarch Butterflies
The series “Monarch butterflies” is a collection of my personal healing and family and friends’ healing. It consists of what I learned from their histories and their struggles on the road of healing.
<Alguna vez as sentido que tus manos se negaran agarrar el pincel, asi me siento al frente de esta canvas en blanco. Hace ya un tiempo que rehuyo entrar al estudio. Hoy tengo mas de 40 anos y sufro las concecuencias de haber sido violada y abusada sexualmente hasta la edad de nueve años. Vivo episodias de PTSD entre mi diario vivir. Esto lo dejare inedito, asi que perdonen las faltas, las pincelas sucias, la composicion no original. No guardo retrato de mi infancia solo uno. Muchas veces volvi a esta pintura pero me negue a corregir o hacerla de nuevo. Esta pintura se lleva una carga, esta bien asi.
Self-portrait at 9
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30 x 30 cm | 2019
<Have you ever felt your hands refuse to hold the paintbrush? Like that I feel in front of this blank canvas. I’ve been avoiding going into the studio for a while now. Today I am over 40 years old and I suffer the consequences of having been raped and sexually abused until the age of nine. I live episodes of PTSD between my daily lives. I will leave this as a draft, so forgive the mistakes, the dirty brushes, the non-original composition. I do not keep a picture of my childhood only one. Many times I went back to this painting but I refused to correct or redo it. This painting takes a load, its ok like this. Take me raw and Un-broken777.777
My personal note:
The monarch butterfly remembers the journey of its eternal migration despite none of them making it to their destination in their short lives passing down the route through their DNA. Just like the butterflies, humans also pass down and carry important information in their DNA.
I started the Monarch series whilst learning about myself and about healing my inner child. During this process I started my own journey of understanding the facts of my ancestors, facts that eventually helped me understand who I am.
In the first piece represents myself, as I was at 9 years old. The next two works represent my daughters, to whom I have unwillingly and unknowingly given the consequences of generational traumas lived. The crowns on the butterflies show a sequence of seven, a number rooted in positive vibrations. In turn, these vibrations bring soothing energy to the mind. The sanguine crown is a sign of expected tranquility to those who see it. The project extended to people close to me and in turn the shared experiences which had transformed us. I listen to them, understand their addictions, I hear their childhood stories, all together helping me understand what made them the human beings they are today. They’re all wonderful people with an inner child with a need to be painted.
Monarch Butterfly at 3
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30 x 30 cm | 2019
Monarch Butterfly at 13
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30 x 30 cm | 2019
What People Say
Poverty has long arms that reach through generations of people,leaving telltale bruise marks on its victims even after they are blessed enough to get out.”
Julia K. Dinsmone.
None of us know what will meke you happy. That is the question you have to ask yourself. But I can tell you for certain is that you you will have get to the place where the sound of your voice is the clearest voice in the room.
Gemma B. Benton, Then She sang a Willow song: Reclaiming Life and Power with the Ancestors.
Our ancestros knew that healing comes in cycles and circles.
One generation carries the pain so the next can live and heal.
One cannot live without the oder, each is the other’s hope, meaning & strength.
Gemma B. Benton
The Expressionist Fool 